"Before I Formed You in Your Mother's Womb I Knew You . . . " - The Perfectly Imperfect Mama

"Before I Formed You in Your Mother's Womb I Knew You . . . "

by - Saturday, January 28, 2017

Yesterday I couldn't help but get chills as I watched the March for Life that took place in Washington DC

It was incredible.

It was the real women's march.

I loved seeing all of the different people walking and being a voice for the unborn.

I am pro-life.

When I was only nine years old a lady at my church I grew up in wrote a song from an unborn baby's view called "Don't Let Go" & of all people she asked me to sing it.  My parents & I said yes ... of course not knowing that one day that same nine year old little girl would grow up & would lose one of her very own babies at just 15 weeks pregnant.

You may be wondering what that has to do with being pro-life? 

At my first ultrasound, at just 6 weeks pregnant with our third baby, Dan & I both saw Ruthie Belle's heart beating for the very first time.  She was real.  The moment my pregnancy test read positive [weeks before my 6 week ultrasound] my family & I were already making plans for her.  Including her in our family vacation, her first Christmas, how life as a family of 5 would be & already deciding on which room she would get to call hers.

After losing her last year, it made me want to be even more of a voice for the unborn.

Whether you want to admit it or not, abortion is murder.

How could any doctor want to do a procedure such as that?  I'll never understand.  Perhaps they've never seen a 6 week ultrasound of their very own baby & their tiny heart beating only to go back at 15 weeks to see that perfect little baby curled up facing you during an ultrasound with no heartbeat.

As you were sitting around complaining about being pregnant & wondering how this could happen to you, I was watching my six and three year old jump up & down in excitement because they were getting a new baby.  As you were in that doctor's office discussing all your options to "get rid of" your baby, I was laying on an ultrasound table begging God to let my baby's heart start beating again.  As you were in that doctor's office room waiting to have this tiny baby torn apart piece by piece by a doctor or swallowing a pill to destroy this very life God created in His perfect image all because it's "your body, your choice", I was being put to sleep in a cold operating room having my baby removed from my body because her tiny heart stopped beating.  Never to even see or touch her but to hold her in my heart until I can hold her in Heaven.  As you were walking out of the doctor's office feeling like everything was "taken care of", my husband & I were leaving the hospital empty handed & heartbroken & going home to two precious children who couldn't even begin to understand what was going on.  Not only was I having to heal from surgery, but also a broken heart.

Proverbs 6:16-19 says ...
There are six things that the Lord hates, several that are an abomination to him: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that make haste to run to evil, a false witness who breathes out life, and one who sows discord among brothers.

I want to share the lyrics of the song "Don't Let Go" with you . . . 

I know I'm not what you wanted
I know I'm not what you planned
I know I won't make things easy,
But please leave it all in God's hands
I'm sure you could learn to like me,
I promise, I'll try and be good
Just please let me stay inside here
A little longer if I could

Mommy don't let go of this heart of mine
Don't let go I haven't had my time to live
Mommy don't let go of my little hands
What do I have to do to make you understand I'm real
Mommy please don't let go,
Don't let go of what I feel

My heart it's already beating
My legs are starting to form
Please don't disregard me,
I like it in here, its warm
I wish I could tell you I love you
Just someway to let you know
I'm begging you mommy, I'm begging 
Mommy please don't let me go

Maybe you're reading this & are leaning toward abortion.  My prayer is that your heart will be changed.  Remember that no matter what anyone else may say, its not "just your body" that you have to think about.  Whether you are 4 weeks pregnant or 40 weeks pregnant, you are growing a baby.  And that baby has a heartbeat just like you.  God has a plan for your life and that precious baby's life.

Can you imagine the fear Mary must have had when God told her she was going to conceive the Son of God?
Have you ever thought about what if Mary would have said "No God, it's my body, my choice."

Maybe you're reading this & you've actually had an abortion.  Whether it has been years ago or recently .. I'm not here to judge you.  I want you to know that my prayer for you is that you know & understand that God' grace is enough.  Perhaps you made the choice out of fear, maybe you were worried what people would think, maybe you were talked into it.  Whatever it may be, just know that if you've asked God for forgiveness, He has forgiven you and He can still use you for His glory. 

"Before I formed you in your mother's womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart."
Jeremiah 1:5

Our country needs you.  We need you, Jesus.  I pray that you may turn all hearts away from abortion.  May we all understand that you have a purpose for each and every life.  You created us, Jesus and I pray we are forever thankful for that.  May we all choose life.  I love you, Jesus.
I ask all these things in Your precious and holy name.

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  1. Very well written! It seems people are very firm in which side they're on. I hope that someday people will see abortion for what it really is. God has a plan and a purpose for every being.